Oh Gawd, I am a Tantrika

TAN = to stretch
TRA = beyond limits (a.k.a. beyond that which holds us safe)

BAM. 

I've been blessed.

With good homeland, good parents, good childhood, good education, good friends, dedicated students, good husband, good kids, good vocation, good life.

Why oh why, then, have I:
- left my country
- left my parents
- left childhood memories in dusty photo books
- discarded my degree
- neglected my friends
- offended my students
- filed for divorce
- agreed to seeing my kids only 1/2 the time (?!)
- been searcing for a job

Could it be that all those blessings were not enough? Apparently not, since all I did was leave the riches...

Is it, then, those blessings are too much? Apparently not, since I am still praying:
For strength to overcome (what on earth?)
Wisdom to know (which secrets?)
Power to become (who?)

I know. I am TANTRIKA - one who peels off her safe keeping covers. One who tears off what she is given and uses it as spring board to launch herself into unknown. Into what she will claim for her own. I am one who pushes love away until it becomes beyond shadow of a doubt that LOVE is all I'm made of. We are a narly bunch. Witches.
​Oh Gawd.  I am here.

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